‘Oxymoron’ by me | My writing

written in Spring 2022

(verse 1)

turn up the music

try to tune it out

close my eyes

let it fade into the background

pointless discussions

tension, arguments

we should avoid these topics

instead of running in circles again

i’m tired

(pre-chorus 1)

it’s bittersweet

we’re walking oxymorons

made up of the broken pieces

of the generations before us

i’m the bruise from your harsh words

fracture from critical jabs

and it’s like gravity, always there

after soaring comes the crash

inevitably

(chorus 1)

underlying sadness

won’t let it get me down

don’t wanna explore this right now

which might sound unhealthy

but i’ve been good today

so i won’t let this get to me

(verse 2)

we’re blood

we’re bleeding

fragile numb ghosts

why do we hurt the people we love the most?

feel too much

don’t feel a thing

are we too far gone?

is this the way we‘ll always be?

i’m hurting

(pre-chorus 2)

it’s bittersweet

we’re walking oxymorons

made up of the broken pieces

of the generations before us

i’m the sprain from condescending eye rolls

burn from gaslight that left behind only ashe

and it’s like gravity, always there

after soaring comes the crash

inevitably

(chorus 2)

underlying sadness

won’t let it get me down

don’t wanna explore this right now

which might sound unhealthy

but i’ve been good today

so i won’t let this get to me

won’t let the feeling sink in

will deal with this some other time

just like i have before

but for now i’m not going down that road

put it away, temporarily close the door

cuz i’ve been good today

so i won’t let this get to me

(bridge)

strangers saying

don’t get trapped in the familiarity of misery

but is it really misery

if you give me everything

are at the core of my best memories

are my safety net

when there’s nothing left

know me better than anyone

have my back when no one else does

draw hearts over my invisible scars

and cheer me on in my attempts to fly

i love you more than my own life

(outro)

is this broken?

was it ever whole?

won’t you hold me in your arms?

won’t you rock me back and forth?

drive to italy and argue the whole way there

but when i fall asleep in the backseat

you carry me up the stairs

and tuck me into bed

when the highs are so high

why are the lows so low?

when did we start these wars?

why can’t we let them go?

i need you

so why do we bring out the worst in each other

when i know your best like the palm of my hand

there’s so much love and so much hurt

i don’t know how much more we can stand

but i’ve been good today

so i won’t let this get to me

Skye Mahdi